Looking back..... I realised that I have acomplished nothing. I always relied on others to give me happiness. I do things without thinking of the consequences. All I harboured was hatred and revenge. This is the dark side of me. The side which even my closest friends have not seen. The happier I seem to be, the more upset or angry I actually am. I choose to hide my feelings and express my happy side to people.
I dont want people to borther about my unhappiness. I dont want people to worry for me. I kept all these within me till I finally couldnt take it anymore.

I guess this is the turning point in my life. Its time to be really responsible for my own actions.
I dont want to be vain anymore. I hate taking self pics. I hate my old self.

I want to change. I want to be righteous.

In fact, the recent ordeal taught me how to love myself and not live for others. My actions have caused me 2 nights in hospitalization and the post effect I suffered include being rushed to SGH's A&E department for food poisoning the night after I was discharged. All these pain does not include the time, effort, money and most importantly the care and concern that my fiance, parents and those who were truly worried about me.
At the end of the day, its not just about, is everything I do worth it. Is about how much do I actually love myself.

I realise loving oneself is not about buying new clothes, having new accessories and wearing makeup. If health is not present, everything is useless. No amount of new clothes and makeup can conceal the ugliness. In fact, we cant even choose what are we going to wear, look and see ourselves when we are laid to rest one day.

ApRiL ShaROn TaN aka ApRiL Lee
Born on 07/08/84
Full time working executive, part time housewife
Loves:
car rides, singing, cooking, delicious food & travelling


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